okay i know it's been a week. i feel like i take one step forward. then i get shoved back down. I've been dealing with a lot of problems, mentally and physically. I've got part of them under control. i have one that has decide it is in charge of me. i suffer from gout. which is a pain in the rear. i may go a week with out having an attack. then an attack hits and puts me in bed for a week or so. i take medicine for it .but it seems like it only works when it wants to. around three weeks now i talked to the doctor to try to get more control of it. i went on a medicine to help prevent the gout. i was on the medicine for two weeks. it didn't help instead it gave me a real bad attack of the gout. not only that but it turns out that i was having a real bad reaction to it. it was causing my bones to hurt. i can tell you exactly what bone hurts. the gout was not in my hands and arms. it was just in my feet and legs. know my hands and arms hurt all the time. so i have had to slow down on my knitting and crocheting. my knitting and crocheting has been my coping mechanize. as long as my hands are moving with my knitting or crocheting i can stay calm. i am slowly crocheting and knitting.i do a little at a time as long as my hands and arms will let me. i plan on taking some pictures today of the projects i am working on. hopefully i will be able to post them later on today. thanks for listing to my ranting.